Have you ever struggled with getting something done?
I could receive a crown for procrastinating especially when it comes to the latest book I’ve been writing and I got so frustrated today that I had to check in with a close friend. She’s writing her first book and we have this way of texting each other best wishes. So, when I shared my struggle she said “Just write a little every day.”
Well, I tried to do just that but it’s not helping!
So, what do you do when you seek advice but are not content or willing to try out the advice given?
I’ll admit that to some extent, my frustration lies in my expectation of a perfect script. A story that’s so seamless and entertaining that’ll leave the reader swooning and talking about it for years to come. It therefore follows that everything I do now with this kind of expectation is bound to fall short and that adds onto my frustration.
As I ponder of this dark cloud that I’ve refused to let go of, I figured why not look back at my April goals and share what I have been up to the past few days?
I made it to Nairobi and was there just in time for the celebration of #YALIat2000 held at Kenyatta University.
While in the capital city, I also treated myself to three of my favorite things: bookmarks, books and earrings.
These two lovely notebooks are gifts from my insightful sister who knows that stationery is my kryptonite! She got them at a new store called Miniso 🙂
I have to work on my impatience with this script and the only way I know how to do this is by venting my anger on paper- or by starting another script, but doing the latter would cost me time and probably make me lose focus on this current script.
I’ll mull over it for an hour or so, but all in all, I can’t wait to cozy up to this book:
I love April but not as much as I love March. This month started out great because it’s bliss to start the week on a Tuesday, but personally, this month’s been great and I am getting healthier by the day. I had a bad case of food poisoning and I have never loved the washroom as much as I did this past week.
However, that’s not all there is to this post, I’ve been working on some major goals for this month and I’m looking forward to seeing them come to pass.
I’d love to post more often. April is National Poetry Month, so I’d love to post one poem every week.
I want to collaborate with awesome writers from East and Central Africa for the holiday issue of Nilichoandika Magazine. I’m looking at five pieces of fiction or non-fiction from the contributors for the issue.
Having a session with five beta-readers and going through Sifuna before doing the final revision and publishing it.
I’d love to get down to reading these titles this month:
I downloaded this app, well, technically, I installed three Home Workout apps and then deleted two, and kept the one that did not have “abdominal crunches” in any of the workout plans.
I’d love to plank for more than 30 seconds.
I want to also cut down on my sugar intake.
PS: I tried green tea and that stuff ain’t for me, I had to drink two cups of black coffee to get the taste out of my mouth, but it turns out that taking it before going to bed is like summoning the gods of sleep! Works wonders!
I would love to attend the YALI@2000 event on the 13th of April. Even though I have quite a flexible work schedule, being there to celebrate the young African leaders and to appreciate this awesome leadership program would be great.
Those are my goals for this month. I may come up with more or achieve more during this month, but all in all, I’m hopeful.
There is a certain kind of waiting where the world does not understand your inaction.
What are you waiting for?
What are you doing with your life?
What are your plans?
Where do you see yourself in five years?
It’s almost as if the answer you give could slowly drain away your inactivity and suddenly put you on the stage of “doing something” or “being something.”
What’s your status?
I found myself talking to a fourteen year old girl. Her mom met me and she said, “would you please make her understand that she’s got to work hard if she wants to make it in life?” The girl looked away and then kept her eyes on the ground as though the earth knew her better than anyone did.
Who are you when the world turns their back?
I wanted to ask her what her mom was frustrated at but instead I found myself saying “take your time, you have one life and whatever you choose to do with it, you’ve got to own up to the consequences. It’s not about who makes it first, but that when you get to a place, you are certain that you put the effort in getting there.”
I turned to her Mom and smiled and said, “Do not worry Mama. She’ll get there and sometimes, we push so hard that we push them to their fall. Let her decide knowing that you have done your best to support her. You know a wheelbarrow can only go as far as you push it right? Well, she’s human, don’t push so much that you lose your breath and she topples over.”
“Thank you, but I will give her your number so you can keep encouraging her. It’s a tough world and you know she is your little sister, eh?”
“Okay Mama, I’ll do what I can.”
There is a certain kind of waiting, where the world does not understand your inaction. Where you are reduced to the number of likes and comments you get for posting a picture of you and your child eating out. Measuring the likes and comments as though they are the approval ratings forgetting that you had to take ten pictures before your child could smile but you never asked why. They sit beside you, walk where you say they should, all the while their minds are at war…fighting endless battles just to gain your approval.
A friend asked me, “What are you doing with your life?”
I thought of responding with the bio on my LinkedIn profile but I said “living it the best way I can,” and she laughed and said, “how can you do that? Life is so expensive!”
“Life is precious because it’s granted to us once. It’s not expensive because you cannot calculate how much your life costs, but the things we think we need around us to keep us happy, now those are expensive!”
She let out a sigh and said “You know, you can really preach, but I did not call to get a sermon. I was just checking up on you. Bye.”
There is a certain kind of waiting, where the world does not understand your inaction.
So, you wake up and do the same things over and over again.
I woke up this morning and as I was reading through my emails, I came across this nomination. Thank you for nominating me and y’all check out his awesome blog: Sidebar Books Blog
The Versatile Blogger Award was created to feature and recognize blogs that have unique content, high quality of writing, and fantastic photos. As the web-page about the Versatile Blogger Award says: Honor those bloggers who bring something special to your life whether every day or only now and then.
Here are the rules of The Versatile Blogger Award:
Thank the person who nominated you and share a link to their blog.
Nominate 15 superb bloggers for the award.
Talk about seven interesting facts about yourself, which your fellow bloggers will love to know about you.
So, let me start off by nominating superb bloggers and I’ll leave two slots open for anyone awesome blogger to climb aboard:
I can read a 300 page book undisturbed in 45 minutes.
I wake up at 2 a.m. every day to write for either an hour or sometimes, I reach out for my eReader and catch up on a book I was reading.
I’m all about positivity and when it comes to reviewing books, I rarely give a 2-star rating because I believe that the Writer took time, was courageous enough to live out their idea in a story all through to publication…and more often than not, that deserves more than a two star rating.
Coffee is my friend.
Chocolate cake’s my friend too. Whenever we meet, she blends well with coffee and I am often guaranteed a treat.
I’m a sucker for romance novels. If it’s about shifters and dragons to be specific, I’m all in I tell you.
Cooking especially frying food is just my treat. Whenever household shopping is involved, cooking oil is always at the top of the list!