It’s the last day of 2016, and instead of writing a list of things that happened this year, I am going to talk about a build up.
It is the little things that matter, especially because they build up when ignored, and the saddest part is that little things are easy to ignore.
Like the voice in your head that keeps telling you “it’s not a good idea,” or the awful remarks you hear your colleagues make that make you wonder whether you are in the right place. Sometimes you are doing something but your heart is not in it and you force yourself out of bed every morning and spend days working on something that is not in your heart, simply because you are afraid of what would happen when you take a step back. I have been on a roller coaster this year. I have had the best work experiences and some that I deemed worse. I have walked in and out of interviews sometimes hopeful and sometimes distressed.
As I write this, I am at a crossroads. My heart is done pleading with me and it’s pulling me towards achieving a dream I have had for years. It is a huge project. I have no funds, except for a world I dream of. It is a beautiful dream but realizing it would be a nightmare and I will have to step out of my comfort zone.
What would you say?
I don’t know, for at the moment, I know I am not in the right place and would have to move. I also know that moving frightens me because I would lose a paycheck in exchange for an idea that might or might not work.
It’s been a frustrating few months but I’m going in for this, because hey, if I could sweat it out and write a book, why not try a career change?
So, it is indeed the last day of 2016, but whatever moment you have, cease it, and spend more time with loved ones. If you are at work, please do not ignore the little things that frustrate you, find an outlet that’s positive (liquor is not) and sort it all out, because when you ignore these red flags it builds up into frustration and you end up hating your work.
Also don’t just capture memories, make memories.